Not a Fan.....

"Exactly who are you again?" ---- The SoD



I'm not a fan of the Lakers.....nor am I a fan of the Magic, seeing that I'm on a roll with this, I'm not a fan of bad parents, blatant ignorance, extreme conceit and cockyness, and most importantly, women who think they too much when in fact....they are just that, TOO MUCH.


Its funny how when I thought of this post it was right before a nap where I would wake up and proceed to go in to work where I would hustle for 12 good hours. Not thinking about the outside world but thinking nonetheless. Making moves to my soon to be apartment....polishing this album of poetry, and staying relevant to fans and friends who support me keep me moving. Although the relationship part hasn't developed, can't really understand some of the bumps along the way of attempting to find love from those who say they "really understand, and accept me". Makes for an interesting topic.....Unconditional Love perhaps? Yeah, maybe....but more like the fine print in convo that just gets overlooked...ALOT.

I am quite convinced that if you are having trust issues presently because of your past. Then here's a clue to dating.....DON'T. It's obvious if you can't handle someone in front of you trying to make you happy and all the while you're sitting there telling yourself he's full of shit then you're just not ready. If you sit there and give a war report about your ex for more than 5 minutes and have nothing to say about your now 'present' situation....you're not ready. If you think looking in someones inbox because you're not 'sure' about them??? Yeah not ready.

Then there's the fine print that's overlooked, that is supposed to somewhat justify this uphill battle most men and some women find climbing. That print clearly should state...."Before dating me, understand that when you see me there is no one else, and if you so happen to want to let go a thought that has something to do with your past, better have 3 more that deal with the present because last time I checked, I am someone NEW, and that shouldn't have to deal with issues OLD." PERIOD. Maybe people hear it and still are too shallow to hear what's being said. At the end of the day whether you like it or not....you are judging the new person by the faults of the old person....at this point you should stop, check yourself, look around you....because it just might be YOU that may be the reason you are lonely....

I've had more than one hand of people tell me three words that I take very seriously. I Love You. I question it because so many people have so many different opinions of it...one said it as a way of saying that it was our longetivity as friends that made her fall for me, another said it was because I have amazing qualities that she never seen in anyone else, one said that they saw the way I treated people and wondered how I could be so genuine, another had the feeling surpressed for YEARS and just came out with it like a crush foundated by newfound confidence....The crazy part of all this? Two of them are just divorced, Two are married (Still), One just had a baby, and another is 7months......why in the heck it took so long to say something to me of all people? Well you guessed it, when I was right in front of them years ago, it was SOMEone else who caught their eye, and when you think the grass is greener, you forget.....

It's still grass....you maintain what you're lawn looks like.

So yes I question it, and the answers are real for the most part. Yet the fact is, if your actions can't back up what you say then your card gets pulled, and feelings get hurt. If you like me, then like me going after you, do the same. You want the old school? I'll step to you, but if you want to act like you're in a reality show and I'm just a fan, again I'll fall back and let the rest of the world sweat you. Don't need that bs...no one does, like trying to dive in a shallow pool....you want deep water but can still see your feet at the bottom. Last time I checked, when someone treats you like an option, drop em. But at the same time, if they are the option and you treat them like you want them as the number 1, then someone is actually trying to make a step up....can't make it with them? Let them go. PERIOD. Don't keep them around.....because in the end you're going to be pissed that he is going to get fed up as just a friend. Especially if you overlooked him for the next problem and only use his friendship to talk about your ex and your newfound exploits.

I had to clear that up for a good friend of mine. To this day he's still dealing with being a fan to someone who just told him that she's dating others...(although it was him that did the groundwork) it was them that did the gift giving. He presented himself as himself and what she thought she liked was clouded by the gifts she would NOT receive because he wanted a real person as opposed to the facade he thought he was getting. In other words, homie knew that she wanted to date others but did his best to get the 'real' reason as opposed to the 'I'm not ready to settle' I can remember her telling him over the phone that there was another guy that wanted to give her the world....he sat back for a sec because he knew his situation would only allow a piece of that world 'she' spoke of. So instead of trying to go crazy and buy her, he went the other route, still maintained who he was, did what he could that was already making her happy. Still saved just in case and took another job to do like Dream said and 'get his money up' not for her, but so he couldn't hear that again....he wanted to say "I got dough, but not breaking bread with you because in the end you're only going to look for more" he got his wish too, because the next time he saw her, she exited the lex with another dude yelling at her...."GO TRICK ON THE NEXT ONE BITCH". He smiled, lit his blunt and went into the house. Dude actually dropped her off where he picked her up at, come to find out, she was talking to this dude all the while talking to my boy, even had dude pick her up in FRONT of my mans house to PROVE A POINT. Shallow? Need I say more??? Exactly who are you again??!!

as if this week isn't interesting enough....

Now they saying that the beerbaby parents might not be charged.....WHAT? I would like to find a state that allows the homeless to stay in HOTELS.....don't get me wrong, I'm all for housing the homeless, yet there's an issue when I want to use the pool and I gotta wait for cats paying half of what I am for the same purpose......dig it?

With that said, another issue is the rise of Lil Wayne's Young Money Group aka Lil Waynes Thrown Out RhymeBook Reciters....some day I'm going to dig up Roxanne Shante's cell phone number and put the hit out on Nikki Menage (you think I give a fuck if I spelled it wrong?)....then again I could just holler at my lil cousin who's 6 and can give you a hot 16 as long as you have a cherry tootsie pop. Can someone explain to me how Jae Millz (remember him? the dude from the battle with Ness on the MTV flop Diddy's Band Season 1?)....too much talent to be on a roster like that. Won't go into Drake, but I give you a year dude. This is your summer, take it enjoy it, and know that soon....VERY SOON....a REAL RAPPER will come at you, and will expose your non freestyling self on a bit more than youtube (Thanks Asher Roth)...

To my Celtics....much love on being road warriors.......I AM A FAN

All Laker talk will cease as they sweep the Suns....I still hate them with a passion, so feel free to send all hate mail to my inbox....

Lebron James hate mail can come via phone (I'll actually give you the time to talk about why I am NOT a fan) and email as well.....Please do not make any attempts at trying to convince my fam of becoming fans either, they will eliminate all connections to you and just might leave a bag of shit set on fire at your front door. Cause hey, we all need to face our own bs, and not put it on others.

Ladies be a good friend and tell your big lady friends that leggings and skinny jeans hide nothing and to appreciate their thickness as there are people who love without condition.....this has been your PSA.....

Fellas getting better at telling the younguns to pull their pants up. Yet still can't get over the whole skinny jeans thing with a sag.....come my way and I have a size 14 to help those jeans find a way 'up'

Kids are still bad.....sigh......there's a post I did about this years ago....is my other site still up???


The album is there, question is am I there? Hard work for real......HARD WORK!!!!!

Ok gotta roll......time to finish the job....

I'm a fan of that.

The SoD