Allow Me to Reintroduce Myself...

"...back to work." - The SoD


I wanted to but quite didn't
and for that some folks are smitten but the path for me was already written and for me to follow with a hollow mindset I soon forget that I had somewhere to be in the first place. You tend to make some lefts on the trail of the paper chase.

and not to diminish those who insist that this game of life be finished so soon
I been here never left but compared to the elephant in the room
I'm patiently waiting for high noon so I can step out the saloon and bring real life to those living in the cartoons...
and in the background the music coming in not a minute to soon
a whole new woooooorld...

exactly what it is , living life with no extra bullshit in the biz, to wake up and go to sleep without having to worry about ignorance breaking what has been acheived in between the rock and the hard place of life's decisions. The gifts from above stay gifts to the gifted no stress from the wicked as the fight for survival isn't a fight but a long dragged out process that takes a lifetime to achieve life's wishes

and there it is in the distance, adversity and resistance, doing whatever it takes to stop me from acheiving, whether it be hating or deleting those around me, I'm driven by obstacles trying to pound me, folks who try to down me, and with all that surrounding me it is my life's duty to stay grounded in the foundation so I can build eternally

to make the complex as simple as the simplicities around me, insist that I got this to extinguish insecurities and at last the masses have been reached the way it was meant to be
and through it all I stand tall simply put

Simply "D"

On Guard

"...who knew?" - Pink


For my Gma who's been there and done that. To my sister's Gma who's also done the same. I felt you and that's why I didn't get any tissue, it was all joy.

Don't yall go dying on us now ;)

Anyway, we did it. Yes America we finally got something right. Yet it doesn't stop there and yall know that. There's something we finally got and that was a voice. Use it to the fullest extent, and not to talk shit about how Michelle's hair looked or where she got her outfit from. I can only pray that my man can clean up 8 years of shit in bout' 2 cause if he don't then it's gonna start with the media and work it's way down. Stay on guard for the unhappy republicans. Yes they do work with you and will not take to kindly you rocking your "change is here" attire. They will have their "no bitch, shit is still the same here" attitude as they are telling you to take a day off to enjoy this.....unpaid. Stay on guard people.

I hope you youngun's heard the man say to pull your pants up. To think it's now the PRESIDENT talking to yall, so yes you are looked at too.

I'm starting to think Pennsylvania was a blue state coming since they got Ryan Howard on the Phillies knockin shit out the park. AND they won the World Series this year??? To them, and Virginia (which surprised me....no really it fucked with me) To Ohio (for getting it right finally) and to Cali for making it all interesting for a mere 10 minutes.

Most importantly, big nut grab and finger to FoxNews for trying to really cop out and sellout Palin the way yall did. (I watched that shit to see how they could really spin this in McCain's favor) To think yall were actually talking about the fucking 'white' man vote in VA was bad enough, to actually blame Palin for not being that big of an impact was even more fucked up. I mean HE picked HER- wait, what the hell am I giving them time on my shit for?

....1st shift, new day, more day to enjoy.....Sleeping.

I'm out yall be cool.
The SoD

Early Morning Dinner...

"Chicken and Fries at 3? Good wit' me" - The SoD

Lights hovered all around a skyline missing something

the clouds attempted to overshadow a moon which caused mother nature to wink at us through dark blinds

the light green tree hugged by its leaf blew in the wind as the warm heat ran circles and made circles in my body

I didn't realize how hungry I was

Knew this day was coming and something just something said that it was going to go down...sorry I had a head start and watching the mudslide slide down took me to a place where I was so damn...

oooh what's the word?  Haven't been there in awhile a keychain picture and a piece of me holds on to that smile caught up thinking about the last time we sat here just like this and the other times...there were so many and none were ever considered a memory, just constant reminders of what some consider lost...

sorry I was allergic to the sauce amongst other things

it was as if the years never went by you was still warm and I was still shy and as much as I tried to the chocolate tone of my skin couldn't mask the embarrassment of slipping out thoughts I shouldn't have been thinking out loud.  There's several people who can look me in the eye and see my soul yet at a particular moment in our life you managed to see my soul and touch my heart at the same time, while eating chicken at that...

and to know this wasn't the first time

in fact to know it was the first time had blown my mind even though I spoke with my heart before giving you the chance to just tell me what was and yeah there was static but through somewhat sporadic communcation and failed attempts at trying to fix something never broken the rain did fall but my window stayed open and yours did too

confirmation that no matter how long the rain came and the pain from attempting to change life's game will soon end as the realization of real friends can actually mend the pieces of the heart without any surgery so easily my mistakes could have you ignoring me but your reception to my apoligy wasn't the only thing that floored me 

obviously

chicken and fries...3am mudslides...what's next on the list?  24 hour Thai?  Don't matter to me, just as long as you breathe, this isn't the last time....

no more years in between.

The SoD

New York Shit....

" 'Yada, yada, yada......damn."  -  The SoD

Let me be clear.   I am only a hater of the New York Yankees.  My Gdad loves the Mets, GMa loves the Jets, and my dog gets quiet when the Knicks and Giants are playing.  Moms is a fan of the team I hate, so you can say I'm guilty by association.  Besides.  I'm from West Mass, which makes us a bit more social to the New York scene as opposed to Boston.  So once again I had to tell cats that I'm not from the Bean.  They got it, they could tell by my lack of an accent.

Anyway, I hit up the City this past weekend.  (Big I'm sorry to J* in Philly and M* in Deleware, I got yall don't worry)  Although I went on short notice, still it was all it should've been.  I didn't have much traffic so I breezed through CT easy.  Once I crossed the Whitestone, it was a wrap.  

Hello Brooklyn...howyadoin?

Hennessy?  Check.  Broccoli?  Check.  My peoples? Check.  The Hood?  All around me, check.  Much love to the Brown Sugar club for providing the musical backdrop for my visit.  Shit was rocking, and yeah I have to say I enjoyed myself.  Short time, I know.  Still yet though, next time mo' henney and mo' broccoli.  One of the people's that I kicked it with was NY's finest.  K*, I'll be mo' prepared next time, that's my word.  It is going down.  JZ*, thanks for having me.  We WILL do it again.  Love the view on the rooftop, I can see many of saturdays spent just looking at sunsets and skylines.  That is the shit.  For real.

The trip wasn't over with that visit.  Made my way towards the Fulton Ave area where I got with someone who I haven't seen in close to 10 years. (Couldn't let that happen again)  Anyway, we both had alot to talk about and still I don't think that we got it all out just yet.  With that said like the last paragraph, we will do it again.  KB*, it's good that you and I are still as close as we always were.  I know for damn sure we gon hit that spot up again where we ate, only this time I'm eating too.  You can thank the good ol folks above for looking out for me with that plate.  Goodness knows I needed to soak up all that Cognac.  

I loved it, and will do it again in the future.

K* get your game up.  We will collab on a track for fun.

Brooklyn Stand Up.  Yall rep it well.

The SoD

Population Control

"...I see the way she looks at you." - The Realness


It's the reason why I have more female friends than male. That line was given to me by a close friend about someone who seems to be giving me alot of attention lately. I do see the elephant in the room, however, it took more observation from someone on the outside to confirm what's real.
...the smiles are come hithers
...the occasional looks down are thoughts of switching positions
...she's wearing lip gloss...yet she keeps licking her lips.
Yeah, I heard it. Caught the evil eye for giving it the time of day. Not to say I'm in any position to be on some bullshit. (I am smart you know) I just was caught off guard by the intro. Good look on the light shine T*, although you hit me with it rather than just turn it on :)

Why population control? It's walking in the dark that can cause mistakes of procreating without thinking. Think about that.

On another note. Some may be wondering considering my myspace whether or not to even hit me up. Well. I'm working on a new page and yeah, alot more shit upcoming.

My boys are winning the world series again....as long as they beat the s-00h shit they ain't even in the playoffs....

There's a great way to end the season and the life of the stadium. DOA.

I'm out
The SoD

Count to 10....Now Breathe

"Fuck where I've been, it's where I'm going."

I've been out for awhile.  Don't ask, only the real know.  Just know that I'm fine and all is well. As some worry about my safety, I try my best to keep those close at ease.  Understand that I've done alot of things that I don't regret.  There hasn't been anyone that crossed my path that didn't have something coming to them as I went through them to continue my path to become me.  I never brought anything to anyone, I was the reactor, the person responding to situations that affected me in some way or another.  Each time I was careful, and because of this I earned my spot in a way.  Alot of times I never asked for things to just 'happen', good or bad.  Fact of the matter is, they do.  With me.  Alot....a whole fucking lot.

My close brushes with death are things that I am still trying to live with.  From being shot, to having bats shattered on my head and numerous car accidents etc.  I have come to grips that it's easy for people to not trust the world around me.   Hell I'm the same way, yet I have to give some cats the leadway to live their life.  I can't help but to stress my concerns, yet I have to give them the benefit of the doubt that they know what they are doing.   It's how I sleep at night.  I'm loyal to my friends like I am to my family.  Unless there is some kind of reunion, I am on one hand with my number here.  So I keep it all tight like buttcheeks on a cold day.  Trust and believe, there are alot of things my friends have done that I don't agree with to this day, yet it's my trust in them not to remind them all the time.  

Do I have a temper?  Hell yes.  It's pent up from a time where I allowed people to make decisions for me.  Go here go there, become this, do that, smile more, kiss ass, and look where it got me.  Unhappy, stressed, and when it hit the fan, I was the scapegoat.  Unlike others who choose to point the finger.  I pointed it at myself and dealt with things as if I put myself there.  I said yes right?   We're not even going to talk about relationships, that's a whole nother' blog.  This is the other 90% of my life.  The people who talked that 'we got your back shit'.   The church, the jobs, old friends, teachers.  The ones who turned their back when I uncovered the real about them.  When it came time to pull their card, I instead used my wit and my past to stop the charade.   I said no for the first time, with a smile at that.  Instead of meeting me halfway, muhfuckas took the low road.  Talked shit behind my back, told me that I wasn't going to amount to nothing, said I was gonna end up a small article in the paper right before seeing my face in the obits.   This shit I was hearing at 15.  As time progressed,  jobs were taken,  goals were created and met.   I had learned and developed my own path where I could make my mistakes and tell others fuck you if they had anything to say about it.   I stayed faithful to those who gave me that leadway.  The ones who said they worry but it's cool.  When I come out on top, I don't even address those at the bottom.  Why?  Ain't no point.  What did they do?  Firing a gun in the air ain't killing the sky.  Why do I need to tell you I didn't get hit?

I am not the streets...that's the LOX.   People who know me know that I am prolly' one of the nicest people you could meet.  As long as you don't cross me.  No matter where I go there's gonna be someone who thinks they can come out on top of me, and that's fine.  The love of competition brings me to that level.  Yet, it's those who play dirty that underestimate me at face value, that don't know who I am.   They see the wire frames, they see the big feet and the lefthandedness and think I'm another sucker that knows nothing but computers and video games. Although I do, they don't realize that last symbol on my arm means "Dangerous" until it's too late.   I don't ask for it.  It comes.  Unlike some, I have a different way of dealing with things, besides....there's people here at home I have to take care of.  Can't have them without me at any cost.  So I have to be thorough with myself on all avenues.   Dig me?

With that said, there isn't a street you can't cross without looking both ways anywhere in the world.  Why?

Cause you never know who really is trying to hit you.

Count to 10....now breathe.

The SoD

Look Closely

"...'Strong',  'Intimate', and 'Dangerous'....top to bottom"  -  Tattoo on left shoulder

There comes a time where things just go up.  You wake up one morning and after giving thanks, just take in what's good.  The phone rings and you are performing in a big show in your hometown, you recommunicate with your best friend, you have a photo shoot that is promising, new jobs begin, and although the temperature is set on "melt", you realize that this is some cool shit happening.  So fast, so in sync, so fucking good.

Fuck what you heard, it's what you know.  I have to limit all my travelling to weekends and you know what?  Maybe that's all I need.  I always lived by the phrase work hard play hard so there it is.  With that GPS shit in the car and a new phone in the works with the same thing, the last thing I need is someone up in my ass about how I couldn't come see folks.   So once again I will go on tour, catching up and tearing shit down in the process.  This is gonna be some shit.  It's the drive home that's gonna be ill though.   Gotta get back and repeat the process.

So with that said, New York and New Jersey seems like the spots to chill, DC is last on the menu.  Looks like Darkness is gonna go for a ride.  

a lil' snippet cause some are asking....what the fuck does that shit have to do with the quote up there?

The heavens underestimate my powerful eternal reign simple and plain my time on this earth from birth til the day I die is spent living for the lifetime instead of the moment.  It was these same moments that gave me a chance to dance with death, in fact it was these same moments that I spent most of the time taking in my fate over in over in a last breath followed by short clips of life slideshowing different times when I was at my finest.  All this as I look at and take in what should've been the end of me.  Wink to the sky cause I know God's been good to me.  So each day I'm alive I strive to become stronger, on the inside more so the outside holds up longer...

The heart understands my personal eccentric repetoire by far I'm a romantic, fuck circle yes or no I wrote love poems on candy braclets with your name in the middle, trace circles on your backside and while making you giggle I'll tell you a riddle that I won't even have the answer to, but to think on it together forever makes it even better to hang with you and this comes without banging you and no I'm not aiming to, i'm too serious for playin' so I'll be fucking me gaming you.......

Ok enough for now...hmmmm that's two I gotta finish.  Those who know me, look close.

You've been served.

The SoD