The Gift and The Curse 1....

"Never said I was perfect...." - The SoD







Ok so I'm known to have a temper, that was something I said a long time ago, I also said that I don't like to argue or buy into unnecessary bullshit. That was also a long time ago. It is when these things are forgotten, and the buttons are pressed, that I find myself dealing with certain situations that call for my attention in ways that I don't feel the need to be involving myself in. People get hurt, and the extent of that pain comes from not remembering the fact that before there was what happened, there was what I said. I try to bite my tongue, but the lashing I'm getting has stretched my nerves way beyond it's max. My patience is short cause I'm former military with a keep it simple stupid mentality. I can listen with the best of em, but where is the reciprocal?

I write to escape, I perform to let loose. When I'm being myself, I open myself to those around me, take me in, inhale me dig it? All I can ask for is the same in return. Be real cause that's all you got with me, you are only as good as the muhfucka you present yourself as. You put yourself on a horse, then ride that shit. You don't put yourself up there like that? It's cool, just remember that when you get around people check the 'tude' at the door. I give everyone a fair shot until I'm crossed, then all bets are off. I tend to go after the ones who 'choose' to cross as opposed to those who just 'randomly' cross me. It hurts when people get to me that I remember hearing them say they got love for me. As much as I love VH1, there was a time where I saw New York get burnt quite a bit after asking and hearing if anyone got love for her.

You be surprised what the tv can teach you if you tune out the bullshit.

Back to this Gift and Curse thing. I am not perfect. I come flawed like everyone else on this earth. If I tell you my flaws and I'm still accepted, then I don't expect these flaws to be why we are no longer peoples. As far as I'm concerned, you knew from the beginning. If it was that important to be listened to, it should be as important enough to be remembered when it hits the fan. Makes it alot easier to do a job when you know what you are dealing with beforehand.

I'm all over the place and so is this post...onward and upward folks. Part 2 later.


The SoD